When i was younger, i used to hear "I hate you" over and over in my head. It took me a long time to realize that it was me i was talking to. It doesn't happen anymore but what you wrote reminded me of that. So... maybe you're saying "I love you" to yourself! That would be amazing and so right! =)

^_^ I can’t say for sure, but that would definitely be amazing. Your take on it really lit me up.

P.S. I’ve been there too and oddly enough, it feels good to look back and see how far we’ve come (I assume you’ve come far too).  =]